
I mostly walk around at 135-137 lbs. “Mostly” is the operative word. There was a time when I lived with an ex-girlfriend whose definition of nutrition meant a 16 oz. bottle of Dr. Pepper and a mini-microwave pizza and that’s it. For the day. I ballooned up to 155 lbs. That’s not terrible. I understand that. On my frame, though, my face looked round. If I clenched enough to give most people a hernia, I could see the outline of some abs. Again, not terrible and yet not where I wanted to be in my 20s.
When we broke up, I worked out more and by “more” I mean incorporated more cardio (interval sprints, steady state biking, walking because she was my source of wheels, etc.) into my weight lifting routine. The pounds melted away until I hovered around 145 lbs. I thought this was good.
I stayed at this weight for quite some time, maybe a decade or so. I ate chicken breasts and broccoli for dinner, oatmeal for breakfast, and otherwise tried to “eat clean.” I steadily worked out and went from clearly a bit overweight to subtly overweight. I still wore 30-inch waist pants and size small or medium tops, but a little bit of love handles poured over my belt. Not much, mind you, but enough that the inevitable caloric orgy during the holidays forced me to buy a couple of 31-inch waistbands.
I still appeared thin with some muscle mass in my arms, chest, and shoulders. I clenched a little bit less to find a semblance of abs. This wasn’t enough as I crept towards 30 and saw my friends, family, and peers start their slow decline to what people call “dad-bods.”
I hired a personal trainer to design my workouts. I researched nutrition and started cutting various foods from my diet – sugary protein bars, soda or any drinks with calories (non-alcoholic ones) and processed carbs . The biggest change was this last one, where my previous lunch of PB&J sandwiches sat atop white bread then multi-grain and finally whole wheat. It made no difference until I cut breads entirely from my day-to-day meals. I stopped drinking beers and other carbonated beverages (alcoholic or not). That’s when my body vastly changed. Muscles bubbled to the surface. My abs became self-apparent. I didn’t have to clench to see a six-pack.
I walked around at 140 lbs. Maybe I drifted close to 145 around the holidays, but knew I could get back down once a switch flipped in January. I had no reason to push it further. I looked good, felt good, and my diet already felt restrictive enough. I couldn’t imagine cutting anything else. At least not without eating salads every single day while dreaming about pizza and cheesecake. But what sort of life was that?
Then competing at IBJJF events happened.
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At NAGA, I weighed in the night before without my Gi and stripping down to a pair of swim trunks and a t-shirt. The cut off at 139.9 meant skipping a protein bar sometime during the week and fasting a little during the day of weigh-in. No dehydration or running laps while wearing plastic bags. Very doable. Almost too easy.
Only smaller humans could make that weight (sub-140). Albeit at that first tournament it meant facing 20-somethings while my 40s loomed on the horizon. It didn’t matter. As I won anyway.
At New Breed, the lower cut off for over-30 competitors was 149.9. I could make that weight while wearing jeans with a George Costanza wallet shoved into the back pocket, a hoodie, and a backpack with my Gi and water bottle slung over my shoulders. I hadn’t weighed 149.9 (or higher) in years.
This higher weight did intimidate me a bit. Yet with the age limit being 30+, that meant opponent(s) worried more about their 401K contributions than finding a Gi sponsorship. Same as me. We all had work on Monday, so let’s just put away the flying armbars and make sure we all make that meeting next week.
For the IBJJF, and part of its appeal to me, lay in the delineation of weight classes. I had a choice in matters. If I refused to cut weight, I easily made Feather. No worries leading up to the event, simply concentrate on preparation. My worries stemmed from the Feathers in our gym. They felt strong…stronger than me. They stood taller, using longer limbs and leverage to pin me down or keep me off them. I felt every one of those 14 lbs. between us. This was Featherweight.
Or I could cut about 2-3 (4 at the most) lbs. or the weight of my Gi, belt, and grappling shorts. I’d have to walk around at 136-138 lbs. to avoid joining those guys jogging in the parking lot while wearing trash bags and hoodies or grunting one out on the toilet in hopes of losing a couple more ounces. If I woke up around that weight, I could have a breakfast and some water and be set for the day. I could do this.
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I changed my diet again. In came the salads. Out went almost anything resembling dairy or carbs. I drank a berry smoothie and ate one apple a day for fruit carbs. Otherwise, I embraced avocados and fats for energy. Every morning, I stepped on the scale to monitor trends. By Wednesday morning, after hard sessions on Monday and Tuesday nights, my weight hovered the lowest. It rose a little after easing back on Wednesday before plummeting again after Thursday and Friday sessions. The issue here, though, lay in taking Friday off before a competition. So I pushed my weight until my morning weigh-ins hit 134 lbs.
I could deal with 134 lbs. in the morning. Even after full meals and mild rest, I gained about 3-5 lbs. in the course of the day. If I competed earlier than 8 pm or fasted that day, I’d be fine.
The changes I saw encompassed more than the mirror. It became mental. I’d cut all foods and drinks – lifestyle choices – that I previously enjoyed. I ceased a weekly stop for burgers after Friday training. Bottles of wine collected dust. My wife stopped looking forward to weekend tacos. By focusing on the end goal of making weight, I changed.
The physical changes were largely negligible. Maybe I looked a bit more cut. Maybe my energy levels dipped during my morning workouts. Maybe my cheekbones jutted out more prominently after a night of hard training. Really though, the 3-4 pounds could be nothing more than a hydration issue. I was learning, though, how to hit and maintain this competitive weight.
This became a new me. I ate salads for dinner. I monitored my weight throughout the week, sometimes obsessively. I drank water and only water. I learned which protein bars contained no sugar and didn’t upset my stomach. I curtailed dairy as much as I could. Fats and proteins became my fuel. I lived the life of an obsessive athlete.
Was it worth it, though, this disciplined and restrictive life?
I can’t answer that. Especially in context of then. At 35 years old, I wasn’t dropping to Rooster. Feathers seemed too big, too strong. That much I knew. I embraced Light-Feather. This was/is my weight class.
I missed cheesecakes and burgers and pizza. I missed splitting a bottle of wine with my wife or sipping a cocktail or two on the weekend. I missed a lot of things associated with “unclean” living. So I made it worth it. I had to earn the cheats. Then it became a celebration of sorts, not just another day, another weekend, another meal. This was my life after converting to IBJJF competition.